[Jakecpa]

I began to study very energetically, exited, hungry. But lately all this has turned into some weird kind of depression. I no longer know what a Friday or Saturday night of partying or fun feels like. I’m a completely different person. Almost anything makes me mad, and even watching a few youtube videos make me feel guilty. I moved to a different state 2 years ago for my first accounting job. 3 months later I was promoted when someone else left and immediately after my company offered to pay for Becker. I agreed right away, but all of this left me with ZERO time to meet new people or venture outside on this new place. Most of my coworkers are in their 40’s, married and have a family. I passed BEC, AUD, and reg on the first try, but FAR turn out to be a monster. I took FAR even though I had only gone through about half the material, so I failed and they took my BEC credit.
Currently I’m trying out for FAR again next month, but its just too much material. I don’t really let people know what I’m going through, nobody understands. But in all seriousness, being lonely and stressed about this damn exam has really taken a toll on me. I really want to finish this thing and find the real me, the person I used to be 2 years ago.

[livealittle]

thanks,

going on hour 5 of studying today – I took some breaks of running around the block and later vacuuming the pool and testing all the floats

I have done some MCQ and reworked some Simulations, reread some notes, looked some things up

about to do a progress test

BEC - 8/8/16
REG - 66, 77
AUD - 81
FAR - 9/8/16

[Sean McKinnon]

I had a similar post on here not too long ago. For some reason, I decided that I'm not attempting any section of the exam without passing FAR first. When I made that decision, I had all the confidence in the world that I'd pass it, even if I had to fail a few times to figure it out. I don't want that 18-month clock to start ticking with the section I'm most likely to fail just hanging over me.

The first failure wasn't a big deal. “I've at least got some exposure to it now,” I thought, and “Surely, with some more study and some more understanding, I'll get it this second time.”

Well…I didn't get it that second time, either.

I sit for my third attempt at FAR on November 11th at 11am, hoping like Hell that maybe I've learned something from all of these late-night study sessions. I wasn't thinking about it when I scheduled it, but being a huge military history nerd, the significance of that date and time dawned on me. On that day and at that time in 1918, the First World War simply…ended. I'm not necessarily a believer in such things, but the mental anguish I've experienced with FAR has me hoping that in some strange, cosmic sense, that the same day that saw the end of the Great War will signal the end of my own self-destructive battle with this damnable exam. If, when it's over, I walk out of the testing center and hear bells ringing, I'm going to be very, seriously spooked.

I know, intimately, the depression you're feeling, even if I'm not experiencing it exactly the same way – I didn't have much of a social life to lose, probably because my ridiculous lack of personality and excessive war history-nerdiness means that I can draw parallels between one of the most cataclysmic events in human history…and the CPA exam. For you and I, at least, FAR has an ability to suck the joy out of living that's rivaled by very little else. I think there's more than a few people on this forum who understand that, and it's a lot more people than just the few that have responded to your post.

At the end of the day, just remember that you've already passed 3 of the 4 exams, which puts you in an almost immeasurably better position than a whole lot of people, and definitely myself. You're clearly very, very capable of passing FAR. It's really not even a question of IF you'll pass it, but by how much.

[Jakecpa]

Thanks Sean, you are certainly doing the right thing by getting FAR out of the way first. Your 12 month future self will thank you down the road. I was able to pass all 3 other sections comfortably, so after you pass FAR I'm sure you'll be able to handle all other 3 sections easily. Keep it up 🙂

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