Don't feel bad about yourself it will add to the problem you are experiencing.
Reflect on what preparation did you have for the job? Did you go to college or have formal training in accounting at the college level? How did you do in school? Were you able to learn “faster” in school than you are on the job?
Is the work you are assigned consistent with what you expected upon accepting the position?
Does your boss say you are a slow learner because you ask the same questions repeatedly? Or ask questions about the same thing, repeatedly? Then Skynet's tips should help. Take the time to write notes. Review your work. Try a different approach, such as additional training. “Prestigious private companies” should have tuition or training assistance – take some additional classes to aid in your grasp of accounting topics. Did you take intermediate accounting in school? If not, take these classes over the next year or so.
Make sure your boss knows you are trying to figure out a way to better grasp the tasks you are assigned. Not all employers provide the level of training support that Skynet has access to but many have written procedures in place. As insecure as you may be feeling, don't let other people define your self-worth. You show up everyday, you are trying very hard. I didn't go to an elite school or work in Big4 and I feel pretty good about myself. As for Big4, I think I dodged a bullet – everyone makes it sound awful.
Finally, what do you feel your strengths are? Are you suited for the job? Do you like accounting? Should you try something else that will come more naturally? Consider for a moment that you are not a slow learner and maybe you don't care enough about what you are doing to really pay attention and learn it. You may need to change to something that grabs your attention and you want to dig into. You have good experience under your belt – see where else it may take you. At the very least find a more supportive environment that will make you feel good about yourself. You have value and you do contribute, please feel good about that.
Thank you for sharing your story. Everyone has doubts about themselves. Few of us are brave enough to share them. Find your niche and feel better.
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and a little thing i like to call, time and effort!
if you want things to change, you have to do something different