- This topic has 20 replies, 16 voices, and was last updated 7 years, 11 months ago by .
-
Topic
-
I am really feeling defeated by this stupid ass exam. I am having such a time getting over myself. I am reluctant to admit that this downward spiral of emotion comes from the fact I suffer from anxiety and depression. It getting harder to ignore. My frustration level has been the highest its been and I feel like I could throw the towel in.
I struggled for 18 months to finally get a pass in April 2016. Then I passed two more exams in May and Oct 2016. Then in Q4 took REG for the first time and failed. I didnt sweat it b/c I was tired from all the energy it took to pass FAR in Oct after 6 attempts. Q1 2017 I studied smarter and did well on Becker progress tests only to fail again.
I am seriously at the end of my rope with this. I look at my kids and I am very sad about all that I have missed in their lives. When I started they were 2 and 4 now they 6 and 8 and I am still not done.
I just don’t know what to say or do at this point cry, scream, quit. Started taking meds for anxiety and depression to help ease my mind. I guess they help because Iam not yelling at people anymore but I still want to punch holes in walls.
Any suggestions on how to mentally put those two failures out of my mind? I realize if I dont the jerks that grade this test will happily give me another 66. I didnt got to best colleges but I am not stupid. I mean I feel like this process is complete BS! How could I still not be done after 4 GD studying an average of 20hrs a week? I don’t know where I am going to find the strength to study for this “new and improved” BS test. Is this where I get off the bus?
- The topic ‘To angry to think of a catchy title - Page 2’ is closed to new replies.