Thank you everyone!
Christy that was so cute, that means a lot to me. I actually read your comment yesterday as I was laying in bed and I wanted to give a good response that really made you feel something, that really made you understand that you are capable. So here it goes, and be warned I am just going to type… I am going to ignore grammar and just have a free flowing thought:
When I started this process I thought I could pass a few, but I knew in my wildest dreams I was never going to pass FAR. For me it was either take my CPA exam or get a job. We all know what I did. I was doing it as a bullshit lie so no one made me get a job.. I did want it, BADLY.. But I knew i wasn't smart enough. I cared more about going out and having fun, I also feel like I'm lazy. I like when things just come to me or happen. I would rather beg my professor for an A than do the work that gets me an A. I know I'm not dumb but the CPA exam, with a average of 45% pass rate? Seriously, not me.. ever. I figured I will never be that smart. I did however take it seriously when I studied for it, I did want to pass but just knew I wouldn't, IF that makes sense. When I studied for Audit I didn't find it hard but I just assumed the actual exam would be harder. It was hard.. I did think I passed though. I did. My first exam I studied from January 4 2016- end of February. I studied every single day at the library for 6 hours. It was snowing outside so I didn't feel like i was missing much, basically it was easy to study when your only options were sitting around the house or pass a section of the CPA exam. I hadn't been in auditing or an accounting job for a few years (ACTUALLY never have done auditing).
REG was next, I had no motivation, honestly just two months of intense studying is just crazy, I thought shit I don't wanna do it anymore, but i did. I failed my first attempt of REG. I couldn't even understand half the formulas. I thought I was dumb. I was like people like me don't pass REG. I am just not that person. I couldn't focus, I couldn't comprehend the info, and I didn't have motivation. After I failed it, I cried. A lot. It was now 4 1/2 months into the process and I had one pass and one fail. The fail really crushed me even though I knew I didn't know shit about REG and didn't deserve to pass it that time. I decided to study for it again, and I realized how much more things makes sense when you literally start all over again as a second attempt. I feel like study materials don't explain everything in the same section so something you didn't know in the first few topics is explained in more detail as you go along, so when you start over again the topics that made you wanna scream and cry made more sense. I passed REG the second time.. I cried so much (SO YES, I cry for a pass and fail..).
FAR.. Far took me to so many places. There was so many moments in FAR where I ran upstairs (I studied at home for this one) and just got on the floor and cried and cried. I hated FAR. It scared me because this was accounting, this is what I loved, and I couldn't understand half of it. I thought if I can't comprehend it I shouldn't be in this field. Long story longgg lol, i failed the first and passed the second. Like I said, studying for the second attempt from scratch is really cool (COOL yeah) cause things make way more sense.
BEC.. which is the only exam I failed 2x and passed on the third attempt.. I hated BEC. I hated econ more than anything in the world. I can't even tell you how it happened. I studied so hard. I read every word and made sure it all made sense. Then I passed, it just happened. I can't believe it. The exam was easy in my opinion so I thought I for sure failed..
I know this was long, boring, and not needed but I really want you to understand that it really is true that if I can do it anyone can. I had no motivation, nothing made sense to me, and I was overwhelmed almost every day with the amount of information. It is true how much comes back when you are taking this exam and quality study really is the most important. Treat every day like it is the week of the exam and you'll get a lot out of your days. Enjoy the time you are not studying, no matter how rare that time is.
I truly believe if I can do it anyone damn person can. I am not such a genius that I can pass an exam that has a 44% pass rate, I just never gave up and fought for something I didn't even know I really wanted. This exam isn't about being smart or stupid, it is about quality dedicated study sessions and passion. Have that fire inside of you that no matter what happens you will pass, you will have that day when you are done, where you can celebrate and run around telling everyone I'M DONEEEEEEE.
The end, I'm so sorry this was sooo damn long lol.
AUD (2/16)-84
REG (05/16)-69 Retake (7/16)-79 (ty ninja MCQ)
BEC-TBD
FAR-9/8/16
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