@littlenumberrobot – I agree.. I have learned so much from the relationship before this one. We dated on and off for 2.5 – 3 years.. In between that I dated maybe 1-3 other people over the summer.. and we got back together.. and I eventually left her after 2.5 – 3 years for this girl.. I changed most of my old ways.. and I realized that everything the previous ex complained about, I would do for this girl.. I never bought flowers for any girl, food, romantic dinners, cuddling, hugging.. I was more of a hit and quit, and leave me alone kind of guy.. But I learned so much from the old gf. Then I met this girl, and I broke up with the other one because I thought she was the one I was looking for my whole life.. But I realized.. We dated for 2 years. I loved her maybe after 4 months of dating.. it took her over a year maybe to think the same… I had to constantly ask her why she would never mention anything about the future.. I would have to ask her why she doesn't like talking about her feelings — ever.. As the days pass.. I start realizing more and more that she isn't the one I was supposed to end up with.. I think I was being prepared for something bigger and better.
I think when I meet the right girl, me and her will both know it within a year or so. The more I think about it.. the more I realize I had to try very hard to get her to open up most of the time.. If I wanted to go for a walk around her neighborhood.. (20 mins max), I'd have to beg her for 30 mins.. Don't get me wrong.. I loved this girl to death.. she was awesome.. but maybe she wasn't the one for me..
Hopefully when I pass the CPA, I will meet the girl of my dreams, and like someone previously said we can ride out in the sunset together. I just keep praying I meet this girl sooner then later.. one day.. one day..
Its really hard breaking up esp. like you said you were with your ex for 2.5 years, and talked about marriage, plans, and years together.. its not easy.. its very hard to move past that. I was at the school library today, and everywhere I go.. I just keep seeing her.. we have so many memories together… We did so much together.. I fit in with her whole family, her parents.. I just don't know if I will ever find someone like that ever again.. you know it scares me sometimes.. yeah im only 24 and young.. but I still think about this stuff..
Thank you for your encouragement.. I truly appreciate it! The more I read on this thread, the better I become.. no joke. After posting on here, and reading what people have to say.. I actually feel a bit better… Yes I am sad, and yes I am a bit depressed in a way.. but I think it will all get better with time.. Thank you!!!!
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