kmwgrace- I love this post, so I guess Hiiia-yah!!!
It's nice to not acknowledge our own pettiness sometimes and think of ourselves as being above certain behaviors/attitudes. But I (I believe like you) like to be honest with myself. I am not above feeling jealous, envious, competetive, etc. I typically don't like like feeling these things, but if I acknowledge them I can at least talk sense to myself and reduce/eliminate them.
I struggle with myself in dealing with one person in particular with regard to the Exam. One part of me wants to be helpful, and one part of me doesn't want to be too helpful. It's like I have to research things and figure things out myself and it's a struggle, and then I just spoon feed all of this info/insight to this other person.
I am finding this to be the case at work now as well. I had to struggle for years figuring things out with no training, instruction, mentoring, heads-up, etc. Whenever we get a new person I find myself giving him/her all kinds of tips, heads-up, insight, watch out for this, look out for that, etc. Then, in the back of my mind I'm saying why am I making this so easy for this person when I had to stuggle and agonize. This person is going to make it look like a breeze, as opposed to me who took another 1/2 inch off of his hairline trying to figure this stuff out.
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