[Anonymous]

I have 3 Weeks and 1 Day until my FAR re-take – Oct 14. If I pass, I will be finished. If I fail, I will lose AUD and go back to being half way there. As I’ve mentioned on other threads, I am in the middle of another series of 4 iron infusions that wreck havoc on my body. It is extremely hard to focus, concentrate and retain info. I feel like I have a new bout of the flu after every session and it’s awful to put it mildly. I had the second in the series yesterday with the next two on 2/27 and 10/4. I am way behind in my preparation for FAR and I’m feeling a bit defeated.

I am considering calling the hematologist and telling him I won’t take the next two treatments or at least not the last one. This should give enough time for my body to adjust and the brain fog to clear and hopefully give me a fighting chance to study for FAR. We are trying to get my levels up enough to deal with surgery on Oct 16 so it is a chancy thing. I feel like if I do one more, my levels will be on solid ground but time is running out for FAR…

So, I have come to the dilemma of putting my health first or having a fighting chance for FAR and being done!

I know it should be easy to say health first…but I’m seriously tired of these exams…and the thought of re-taking AUD scares me a whole lot!

(PS: It’s not a life or death thing, at the very worst they would postpone my surgery for a few more months…but that causes a whole different set of issues. I won’t feel like a human again until after the surgery so I’m not super excited about postponing it either.)

Any words of wisdom from the NINJA voices of reason??

[jpowell31]

Unfortunately I understand your situation as well. I'm only 1/4 exams down with August of next year as my expiration for the first one but with busy season coming up at work and having failed 3 exams and it's disheartening for me so I can't imagine having your strength to continue as long as you have. Too bad our line of work isn't exactly soothing….I've been in and out of the hospital all year with a rare condition (on top of a few ongoing known health issues that aren't serious but aggravate each other, conveniently enough) that has called for me to take time off for testing and no definitive answers. I was told by doctor's to take more time off to relax since stress was an aggravating factor but I just cannot afford it. I have to travel to the US to sit exams and soon to visit with more experienced doctors (which is expensive!). My study materials are going to expire in December, which means more $$ to keep going. I also only get 3 study days per exam for the first two tries of each so I've used up all of my sick leave and vacation either studying, flying to take exams or getting tests done. It doesn't help that I'm a stranger to most people but my boyfriend these days and that's only because we share a bed (he gets to deal with a very grumpy girlfriend, bless his little heart). I miss my life and I hate the feeling of whether or not it's worth it, whether or not “I'll pass this one” and whether or not I'm making the right decision in regard to my health.

I'm at the age where I want to make life-changing decisions – marriage? buy a house?….what's NEXT is always on my mind. And I feel like I'm just stagnant wondering, “what if?” and “why bother?” I read where some people on here are pregnant with kids and a fulltime job and I wish I had that kind of determination (or brain power, perhaps).

I know this isn't very helpful but your story is very encouraging. I'm up for REG round 2 on Oct 12th. Just gotta keep pushing until I either get through it or realize I have to choose another path. It's hard for other people to tell you how much you can take but I would imagine with your history with the CPA you have got the fire needed to pass on Oct 14th! The light at the end of the tunnel is so near!

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