[jakeeee]

Hi everyone. I need to vent, as I’m sure my family and friends are tired of me always telling them that I didn’t pass.

I have been studying for this test since December 2011. However, I was able to sit for and pass my first test in January 2012 (two weeks after my last and final suicide attempt–don’t know how I pulled that off). I got cheated on and frankly was just depressed and not happy with myself. Of course I sought help and am happy to say that chapter of my life is closed.

Since then, I’ve sat for the test numerous times and only once felt good walking out of a test (it was REG and I got a 74). In college, I never failed a class and I actually graduated with honors. I’ve been working as a staff accountant straight out of college for almost 2 years and have been doing exceptionally well. Unfortunately I just don’t do well with standardized testing.

I’ve spent so much money and so many hours on this test. I received my AUD score yesterday and found out I got a 70. Did worse on the multiple choice than expected and did just as expected on the SIMS. Sometimes I feel so stupid and just want to give up and change my career, but I can’t see myself really doing anything else. It’s just so frustrating when I’m told I’m really good at what I do, yet I can’t pass a test.

Having your life in order is definitely important when sitting for this test. Today, I can say it’s as close to that as it has been in an extremely long time. I have a wonderful boyfriend and family. I actually recently came out to my whole family on Thanksgiving (day before I sat for AUD), and the reaction I received was the best reaction I could ever have expected. No excuses, but the thought of having to come out did distract me sometimes from studying for AUD. My brother suggested that I maybe take a break and sit for the test later on (especially since I’m in CA and I only graduated with about 126 units–pathway expired!)… but AUD is fresh in my mind and I feel like I’m just so close.

When I sat for REG for a third time in July, my family was in the process of moving/finding a house (parents’ home was foreclosed)… fortunately, my brother and I were able to co-sign on a house for all of us. We downgraded from a beautiful neighborhood to a not-so-beautiful or safe one. My depression kicked in a little there. Growing up, we lived in a bad neighborhood. After middle school, we were able to move to a beautiful house, which I had always dreamed of and we lived there for 10 years. Having it taken away and having to move back to a bad neighborhood was tough. But I am using it as motivation to save money for myself and move far, far away from here. And I’m using it as motivation to pass this test!

I can admit to myself that I have been distracted with personal issues pretty much every time I have taken this test. With that in mind, I’m hoping I can really start focusing on the test and dedicating a lot more time to it.

This post is all over the place because I’m pretty emotional. But if you took the time to read my venting, I just want to thank you. :p

BEC - July 2014
REG - Aug 2014
FAR - January 2015
AUD - May 2014
Ethics - 3x...

[MarathonRunner1]

Kricket:

You story and journey is an amazing one. Thank you for inspiring us all. I look forward to being inspired further by watching your youtube videos.

OP: Hang in there buddy. Keep on pushing. As long as you have the drive and the attitude, you will get there!

AUD: 94 (Nov. 2013)
FAR: 76 (Oct. 2013)
BEC: 79 (Nov. 2012)
REG: 84 (Dec. 2013) It's Mile 26.2, and we finished. Blood, sweat and tears, passion, perseverance, and never giving up, we did it!

California Candidate

[Anonymous]

@jakee No, don't give up, after you make it all this will be a nice dream because you will realize you could do it in spite of eveything. I think we all have suffered of personal issues when doing this, and at the end of the day is just an exam(s), is nothig related to a sickness, or other difficult situation.

If you dont pass, doit again and again, take it positive.

I find this forum helpful for our thoughts, because somehow, someone can read and feel the same.. so, go for it warrior!!!

[Anonymous]

@jakee No, don't give up, after you make it all this will be a nice dream because you will realize you could do it in spite of eveything. I think we all have suffered of personal issues when doing this, and at the end of the day is just an exam(s), is nothig related to a sickness, or other difficult situation.

If you dont pass, doit again and again, take it positive.

I find this forum helpful for our thoughts, because somehow, someone can read and feel the same.. so, go for it warrior!!!

[Anonymous]

…and that, my friends, is why Kricket is my hero!! 🙂

I took this exam 28 times and just received my final passing score yesterday. Over the 4.5 years I took this exam, I survived a major lung surgery and recovery took almost 2 years, walked with my mother through her 3 year battle with bone, breast and lung cancer… She passed away in July 2012…4 days after I took and failed REG. I wasn't with her when she died because I put everything into that exam and didn't make it home in time. I got a 71 on that try!! I have dealt with sick blood that required treatment by a hematologist for a year including 12 iron iv infusions and another major surgery, dealt with a raging case of the shingles AND I have been walking with my dad as he goes through kidney failure… He is in hospice and every day is a gift. I am married, 2 children, and work full time. I've had a two hour per day commute for part of this journey and worked 65 hours per week through another large part of it.

Sometimes life is hard, real hard, but if you want something badly enough, and you believe in yourself, you find the strength to dig deep and conquer this exam.

FORGET OTHER PEOPLE! They can be mean, condescending and downright cruel! Do not let them win! Do not me them affect your life. This is YOUR journey. You do not fail until you quit!!!

Failure is an event, not a person. ~Zig Ziglar

Take a deep breath, reach in deep and try again.

“Here is to ONE more try!!” *raises glass*

NEVER EVER GIVE UP!!!!

[Anonymous]

…and that, my friends, is why Kricket is my hero!! 🙂

I took this exam 28 times and just received my final passing score yesterday. Over the 4.5 years I took this exam, I survived a major lung surgery and recovery took almost 2 years, walked with my mother through her 3 year battle with bone, breast and lung cancer… She passed away in July 2012…4 days after I took and failed REG. I wasn't with her when she died because I put everything into that exam and didn't make it home in time. I got a 71 on that try!! I have dealt with sick blood that required treatment by a hematologist for a year including 12 iron iv infusions and another major surgery, dealt with a raging case of the shingles AND I have been walking with my dad as he goes through kidney failure… He is in hospice and every day is a gift. I am married, 2 children, and work full time. I've had a two hour per day commute for part of this journey and worked 65 hours per week through another large part of it.

Sometimes life is hard, real hard, but if you want something badly enough, and you believe in yourself, you find the strength to dig deep and conquer this exam.

FORGET OTHER PEOPLE! They can be mean, condescending and downright cruel! Do not let them win! Do not me them affect your life. This is YOUR journey. You do not fail until you quit!!!

Failure is an event, not a person. ~Zig Ziglar

Take a deep breath, reach in deep and try again.

“Here is to ONE more try!!” *raises glass*

NEVER EVER GIVE UP!!!!

[Anonymous]

@CR7: Are you going to try again and take your last exam? If you can pass three, you can bitch slap the last one!!

I am rooting for you!

[Anonymous]

@CR7: Are you going to try again and take your last exam? If you can pass three, you can bitch slap the last one!!

I am rooting for you!

[MintsRGood]

I'm not going to pretend that I didn't read this thread and cry. A lot. Kricket and Baxter never cease to inspire and humble me around here. Thank you both for continually sharing so much of yourselves with this community. You have no idea how many people you inspire to keep going.

It's easy to doubt yourself when you see others in your circle going “one and done+high score” and you feel 3 inches tall because it's hard for you. I went to grad school at night for my 150 hours while working full time in public accounting. It took me 5 years but I didn't quit. I went 4 rounds with audit yet passed REG on 4 weeks of prep one and done. This exam is a mind f**k. You are smart and capable and don't let anything else tell you different, OP. I mean it.

I will tell you that I had a complete and total meltdown when I received my 1st FAR fail. I spent 10 focused weeks with the same intensity and focus that got me a 92 on my nemesis Audit and 76 on BEC, both in 2nd quarter of this year. It was unfathomable to me that I would have failed in August after my 2nd quarter success and yet I did. I thought that my train ride through hell was finally pulling into the depot but I was wrong and I went completely off the rails.

My best friend told me that she saw me cry more in that 2 weeks after my results than she'd seen in the past 10 years combined. I'm a fighter and never back down from a challenge. This time however I was a zombie and work and a train wreck at home. I felt like the past 7 years were for nothing and I was an idiot. I was simply broken. My husband literally packed my suitcase, made our travel arrangements, took our dog, and we went off to Florida for 10 days under the agreement that the exam was never to be discussed again. We walked our dog on the beach, drank copious amounts of wine, ate like royalty, laughed tremendously, and I felt whole again.

We came home and within 2 days picked up a new NTS and made a new plan. I felt ready to tear FAR apart and was primed for a rematch. I was salty and wanted revenge…and then I received a 74.

This time I'm not broken or depressed. I'm f**king furious. I'll be damned if one lousy point will keep me out of this profession. So the AICPA wants $300 more out of me and 6 more weeks of my life? Fine. I've all the time, money, grit, and determination it takes to close this b***h out. I've come too “far” to stop now. I'm playing for all the cash and prizes. I'm not going anywhere. Deal with it, AICPA.

If Baxter & Kricket can take this exam 25+ times, I sure as hell can do it one more time. YOU can too.

Some people dream of success…others wake up and work hard for it.

REG: 75 DONE 🙂
AUD: 61, 71, 68, 92 DONE 🙂
BEC: 76 DONE 🙂
FAR: 72, 74, 79 DONE 🙂
Licensed Michigan CPA 🙂
-Some people dream of success...others wake up and work hard for it!!!
-The cowards never start and the weak die along the way!
-You better work, b***h!
-Only those who dare to fail greatly can ever achieve greatly.-JFK

[MintsRGood]

I'm not going to pretend that I didn't read this thread and cry. A lot. Kricket and Baxter never cease to inspire and humble me around here. Thank you both for continually sharing so much of yourselves with this community. You have no idea how many people you inspire to keep going.

It's easy to doubt yourself when you see others in your circle going “one and done+high score” and you feel 3 inches tall because it's hard for you. I went to grad school at night for my 150 hours while working full time in public accounting. It took me 5 years but I didn't quit. I went 4 rounds with audit yet passed REG on 4 weeks of prep one and done. This exam is a mind f**k. You are smart and capable and don't let anything else tell you different, OP. I mean it.

I will tell you that I had a complete and total meltdown when I received my 1st FAR fail. I spent 10 focused weeks with the same intensity and focus that got me a 92 on my nemesis Audit and 76 on BEC, both in 2nd quarter of this year. It was unfathomable to me that I would have failed in August after my 2nd quarter success and yet I did. I thought that my train ride through hell was finally pulling into the depot but I was wrong and I went completely off the rails.

My best friend told me that she saw me cry more in that 2 weeks after my results than she'd seen in the past 10 years combined. I'm a fighter and never back down from a challenge. This time however I was a zombie and work and a train wreck at home. I felt like the past 7 years were for nothing and I was an idiot. I was simply broken. My husband literally packed my suitcase, made our travel arrangements, took our dog, and we went off to Florida for 10 days under the agreement that the exam was never to be discussed again. We walked our dog on the beach, drank copious amounts of wine, ate like royalty, laughed tremendously, and I felt whole again.

We came home and within 2 days picked up a new NTS and made a new plan. I felt ready to tear FAR apart and was primed for a rematch. I was salty and wanted revenge…and then I received a 74.

This time I'm not broken or depressed. I'm f**king furious. I'll be damned if one lousy point will keep me out of this profession. So the AICPA wants $300 more out of me and 6 more weeks of my life? Fine. I've all the time, money, grit, and determination it takes to close this b***h out. I've come too “far” to stop now. I'm playing for all the cash and prizes. I'm not going anywhere. Deal with it, AICPA.

If Baxter & Kricket can take this exam 25+ times, I sure as hell can do it one more time. YOU can too.

Some people dream of success…others wake up and work hard for it.

REG: 75 DONE 🙂
AUD: 61, 71, 68, 92 DONE 🙂
BEC: 76 DONE 🙂
FAR: 72, 74, 79 DONE 🙂
Licensed Michigan CPA 🙂
-Some people dream of success...others wake up and work hard for it!!!
-The cowards never start and the weak die along the way!
-You better work, b***h!
-Only those who dare to fail greatly can ever achieve greatly.-JFK

[Shan]

@MintsRGood–You are my star!!! I will pray for you and this time, you will win this battle!!

AUD-73, 73, 73, 79!!
BEC-77!
FAR-60, 83!
REG-66, 72, 75!

MA CPA license

[Shan]

@MintsRGood–You are my star!!! I will pray for you and this time, you will win this battle!!

AUD-73, 73, 73, 79!!
BEC-77!
FAR-60, 83!
REG-66, 72, 75!

MA CPA license

[Anonymous]

MINTS: You are a ROCK STAR!!! I have no doubt that we will be celebrating your PASS in Jan 2014! Take it back to basics and build from there with MCQs and SIMs. You are my inspiration!

[Anonymous]

MINTS: You are a ROCK STAR!!! I have no doubt that we will be celebrating your PASS in Jan 2014! Take it back to basics and build from there with MCQs and SIMs. You are my inspiration!

[CPA GURU]

At the end of the day, Failing or falling should be another step to helping you succeed. I learn that living a better and fullfilling life is to live a selfless life. Live for the people that you love and care about because at the end of the day, they are the one that will be there for you. I am sadden to hear that you wanted to take your life, But now that you are out of that phase, things could only look up from here. So, remember the cpa is just another milestone, it should not dictate your life or how happy you should be in life. Remeber the important stuff and i am that you will pass. Study effectively and efficiently, not base on quantity. Give your self enough time to study instead of trying to beat a deadline and keep some part of your social life going. I am admire your courage and life experience and i am sure if you can beat what you went through, then you are well on your way of becoming a CPA

[CPA GURU]

At the end of the day, Failing or falling should be another step to helping you succeed. I learn that living a better and fullfilling life is to live a selfless life. Live for the people that you love and care about because at the end of the day, they are the one that will be there for you. I am sadden to hear that you wanted to take your life, But now that you are out of that phase, things could only look up from here. So, remember the cpa is just another milestone, it should not dictate your life or how happy you should be in life. Remeber the important stuff and i am that you will pass. Study effectively and efficiently, not base on quantity. Give your self enough time to study instead of trying to beat a deadline and keep some part of your social life going. I am admire your courage and life experience and i am sure if you can beat what you went through, then you are well on your way of becoming a CPA

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